I simply can't shake the feeling of worry and dread. I am so nervous about starting to student teach. Although I have done all the work I need to do & I am ready to begin, I am just so scared about leaving Emily. I know it will be worse for me than for her, and she is lucky that she gets to be at home with Chris, and not have to have her routine all changed around and put in day care, but I am going to miss her so much, even for just the few hours a day I will be gone. Not to mention the fact that we really just do not have the money for me to not be working until at least December. When I say it like that, when I just out loud say the month, it does not seem so far away. Even though I am sitting here in a skirt and a tank top with our Wal-Mart box fan blowing at me, I know, December, and it's ice and cold, are just around the corner. And that is a good thing. Just one year ago, I was coming to terms with being pregnant and realizing my life was about to change forever. And now, she is here, she is alive and well and thriving, and she is already 5 months old (tomorrow!). It's hard to believe how quickly time has passed. So. So what, we're here, and we don't have much money, but we'll survive. A few months of just squeaking by, so what? That's doable. We can and will do whatever we have to do, and we'll survive, because that's what we do. We're a family, and we're strong, and there are always bumps in the road, but you just have to get over them, get past them, because they'll always be another one, sometime, down the road. I can't say I'm not scared, but with help and support, I don't think there's anything standing in our way.
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